Halloween was a interesting day. I was in a lot of pain( my foot) and was trying to over look it and go on with my day. My kids were so excited to go trick or treating. My daughter was a dead witch and my son was a ninja. We had a good time, they got lots of candy ,but I couldn’t finish walking i was in so much pain, so they went on without me with the other adults we were with and i sat my broke down butt in the car a waited for them to come back.. At least there had a good time and got lots of candy to eat.
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I’m waiting on the night when I can go out and get some cherries and or some strawberries with a little bit or a lot of campaign..lol, some nice music. Kids are gone or asleep, hopefully gone, but lets get real, and Just chill with Heather and enjoy the fact that Sexy Red Lips has a good job. Not just a job, but a good job with great hours ,cool people to work with, and a nice pay check. That would be the best day, can’t wait to do what i want to do, when i want to do it,and how i want to do it. Lets hope that day comes soon..lol but I know it’s a minute before that happens.
I feel like a caterpillar trapped in my cocoon, wondering when i will grow my beautiful wings. For years i have felt trapped, Like I’m not living up to my full potential. I feel like life has/is passing me by. I feel left behind ,over looked and forgotten just slithering my way thru life undetected. When you feel over looked and at the bottom ,it’s hard to see yourself making it to the top. 
It seems like everything happens when your at the bottom,nothing goes your way and you can’t do anything right. Things pile up and you can’t keep up with things, they get out of control. It’s even worst when you have children that you need to take care of. Some are forced to do things that they don’t want to do. Your forced to cheapen yourself, I thank GOD that I didn’t have to go that route, but sometimes it’s your only way to go. I have been so blessed to have had wonderful friends and family that have helped me out so much. 
With there help and love i made it this far .So now I’m moving and i am hopeful that this will be the start of something great for for all of us. Starting over and in some place new will be stressful for all , but i think it’ll be a good change for us. So now I’m hoping that I can spread my wings and fly in this new place and in this new life. I wonder how far and how high i can go. To be a beautiful butterfly flying ,soaring ,taking care of business and my children and myselfwill be great. I am excited about a new life and new a outlook . I plan to make some changes, try new things and hopefully worry a little less if that possible to do..lol
Hopefully i’ll have two little butterfly fluttering behind me. My kids hopefully will shine in this new place as well and things will be all good.
Yes back to school is the best time of the year..lol Why is it that every time your kids go back to school they grow at least two pant sizes? The way you find out is when you look at them in the pants that you bought a month ago and you can see there ankles. Kids cost to much to begin with ,but when they start growing they cost double, and they want all “in” stuff, plus school pictures,back packs,shoes you know how it goes.I wish they could come out the womb with a job..lol
Heather took me to O-nami a sushi resturant. It was so good i think i tasted almost eveything they had. We were so full after that. The resturant was nice and clean ,the food was presented nicely, but what was funny and surprising to me was the music. I thought that they would have had some soft music or maybe some favs from there country or even some elevator music..lol They had some r&b oldies..lol the kind that makes you want to sing and dance. I couldn’t get over it lol i wish they had a dance floor, i would have my butt on it doing the two-step in the sushi resurant. I had a great time as i always do with Heather. By the way she was looking very nice that day i must say. It was the first time i have seen her with heels on …NICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
I looooooooooove red, all things red. Red is so sexy to me. It’s really hard to explain the feeling that red gives me. I know most people think that red is a sexual color and yes it is, but for me it’s a color that just makes me happy.
Now if we are talking about shoes well that’s a different story..lol I have just recently found out that i love shoes.
The higher the heel the sexier they are. I wonder what it is that really catches my eye about nice shoes. OMG now if they’re red heels i will want to snatch them up. It’s a funny thing because it’s not a foot fetish even though i love to see them on a nice clean foot. It’s not the foot that gets me going, but it the shoe
I think it came from my oldest sister . When we were younger we modeled a lot. My sisters more then me because i was young i just looked older. I think this is were it started no the less it’s there. If i had my good knees that i used to have, i would be in them every day. So i just live through those of my friends that can where them all the time( bitches.lol) 
One day I will find away to were them more often and build a collection of sexy heels in my very own walk in closet filled with nothing but shoes, but i know that’s a long ways away. Until then I’ll just have to look at them in stores. boo hoo hoo
<===== Now these will get you a lot of trouble, good trouble of course. You couldn’t tell me that i wasn’t cute with these on ..lol
Heather and I were at my local supermarket last night just before closing. I wanted to get some ice so i headed to the back of the store. I looked ahead of me and saw the worker washing the floor with one of those machines that look like a buffing machine. I remember looking at the floor and the water left behind from the mopping machine and thinking that it would be just my luck that when i walked through the line of water left, i would fall right on my butt.Well that didn’t happen instead of falling on my butt i did the splits ..lol Now I’m not a skinny girl, so for me to the splits without anything hurting the next day is impossible. So anyway the guy ran over to me and asked if i was ok. I said” yes I’m fine” while getting up and just walked around the corner to get the ice. I know that man must have been laughing really hard after i left..lol I got the ice and started walk back to the front of the store when i saw Heather. She asked me where have i been and i replied ” i was doing the splits” she looked at me and said “on the floor?” I said yea and told her what happened. She laughed so hard she started turning red. I must say as a sexxxy size woman that’s the only way I’m ever going to do the splits that easily. Next time i see them cleaning the floor, I think i’m just going to go the other way.
Today was my best friend’s son’s birthday party. It was fun his cake not only looked great, but it taste great as well. We had water games and ofcourse my team won, but did they get there prizes? NO!! It’s ok we know we won…lol they smashed cake in his face, we all had a good time so happy b-day to him>
Hey it’s my birthday month and what am i going to do for my birthday? The same thing i did last year and almost every year before that, nothing. I guess it’s the law for me not to be able to do anything for my birthday..lol Every year around this time i have no money or car so what do i do ,stay home. This year as well as the last couple of years before I’m helping with someone else’s birthday party. I’m not complaining i love planning parties and this one is for a 9 year old, i love kid parties.
So i am going friday to help plan for his party on sunday with his mother, it should be fun. He’s going to have a Ben-10 theme and a Ben- 10 cake. She’s having a lot of people over so she’s going crazy with the planning and cleaning (poor thing) so I’m going to help. At least one of us will have a good time for our birthday , and to help him be happy on his birthday makes me happy.
I have had the pleasure of meeting one of the most beautiful lady’s in the world. She is not only beautiful outside ,but more importantly she’s beautiful inside. She has given me this website as a birthday gift. She has given me an outlet where i can express myself. She has given me the most wonderful of gifts and that is her love ,herself and her time. She makes me feel like I’m worth something ,like I’m sexy, like I’m someone. I haven’t felt like that in a long time. She makes happy when i see her. Life has away of throwing people together to bring back out what was once thought to be pushed so far down inside that it’ll never be recovered. I think that this will bring back my love of writing. So thanks Heather for being you and for being a wonderful person.